emmahevezi

Hidden elements of a person.

In Uncategorized on February 26, 2012 at 8:09 pm

Today I discovered a new side to my mum, a side which I had not seen before. After spending 19 years of my life observing my mum, the strong, unbreakable, confident, chatty person, I’ve seen a new more sensitive and delicate person.

She showed this side to me while discussing the successes of my dads operation where she let out the feelings which reside inside. As the internal thoughts spiraled out onto the coffee table at Starbucks, we had our first mother daughter time in a long time. I hope that I helped my mum deal with these difficult feelings, but it made me think; how do we know what people are really feeling?

If a person appears strong, confident, unbreakable on the outside, how do we really know what they are feeling on the inside? If they are smiling on the outside, are they truly happy?

When I appear confident I know for a fact that inside I am feeling anything but confident! But can anyone see that I am not really confident? My day to day tasks are carried out wearing a mask, behind the mask I can look out at the world hidden safely behind the security that people think that I am in fact confident. How could I have ignored the idea that other people also feel like this?

The part of mum, which I was able to see today, enlightened me to think differently about people around me. It has shown me a new way to interpret actions, thoughts and body language in a way that I can relate to.

When I see a confident person I will wonder what it is that makes them feel awkward or uncomefortable. Is it a self confidence issue, or a previous experience or are they just shy?

When I see a happy person leaping around smiling from ear to ear I will wonder if there is anything that they should be hiding, or other again are they shy?

It has allowed me a whole new way to look at the world around me including the people that I love hopefully letting me understand their feelings and actions better than I do today! 

My mum is my role model, I am inspired by her and believe that she is the strongest person I know. I am lucky to have seen this side of her today because I know that I too will be able to develop an external appearance in the same way.  

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  1. That’s nice. 🙂

    Also one thing I’ve found helpful sometimes in the past is to realize that noone really does anything bad to someone unless they themselves are in pain. And being in pain, one can’t really blame them I think. You don’t really control yourself when being in pain. There is so much going on inside each person that others can’t see, as you indicated. It’s a good realization I think. 🙂

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