my achievement

In Uncategorized on March 9, 2012 at 9:34 pm

today i had the pleasure of doing our daily presentation at work. this involved me having to stand at the front of the break room to talk 3 groups of 30 people. last time i stood up in front of a crowd that large i froze at the front of the class and completely froze. when i froze my top lip started to quiver and i broke down in tears.

the tears flooded down my cheeks and it was one of the most embarrassing moments, when i wanted the world to swallow me up and just erase myself from the planet. the worst moment for me was having to walk back into that classroom full of questions, full of judgements and negative feelings. people felt sorry for me and thought that i couldn’t do the speech that i had planned.

Stage Fright – the anxiety, fear, or persistent phobia which may be aroused in an individual by the requirement to perform in front of an audience, whether actually or potentially. It has numerous manifestations: fluttering or pounding heart, tremor in the hands and legs, sweaty hands, facial nerve tics and dry mouth. Stage fright is most commonly seen in school situations, like stand up projects and class speeches.

so today, the first day when i had to stand up in front of a crowd. my hands were all clammy, my voice was shaking and there were butterflies in my stomach. i knew that it was time to start talking, i respect and like the people at my job so much that i wanted to impress them and prove to them that i could do it. i didn’t want to let anyone down. 

so i began talking, as i went through the presentation it became much easier and the words started to come naturally. as i went on i felt more confident and didn’t even notice that i was talking in front of a crowd. i began to relax and start to put my personality into the presentation. i actually made each of the 3 groups laugh with different jokes. 

i sat back this evening to think about how far i have come since this time last year when i couldn’t pluck up the courage to talk in front of a large crowd. the intense fear that i felt then was uncontrollable. i was still that scared today however i now know how to cope with it. 

all i hope is that with each day that goes by, that i will become more confident and able to take on whatever is thrown at me in life. 


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